it's sunny outside and i'm stuck on my computer

Applied to 10 more Durham region postings today. I don't think I have ever applied to so many jobs in my life than in the past couple of weeks. I am used to applying for jobs, getting interviews, and acing those interviews. So all this rejection is getting me down. And it's not even rejection... I'm not even deserving of a rejection response!How many more times can I do this before my spirits are COMPLETELY crushed?

Am contemplating applying to my old social services agency for a six-month contract position that is posted. It's a full-time position that deals with sending displaced clients (usually with mental issues) back home to their families. Sort of like a travel agent for the social services, lol. Six months would be perfect. Then, once again, I can focus on applying to next year's teaching positions.

Gotta buckle up for some more stupid coursework on the computer as I gaze longingly out my window.

Listening to: MSTRKRFT - Paris

time well spent in class

Applied to 15 Occasional Teacer postings in Durham region during Children's Lit class this morning.

This is the most pointless class - the prof reads us chilren's stories. Then we have to select a children's book and create a follow-up activity, and present it to the class. No one in class is paying attention; rather, they are all completing other coursework, msn'ing, FBing, or perhaps applying for jobs online like me. Have I mentioned lately that teacher's college sucks?

Damn, still 5 more hours until we head back to Toronto.

Listening to: stupid questions from classmates

say what you mean, mean what you say

A sample of an msn chat with Snoopy yesterday:

Snoopy says (7:04 PM):

are you coming over for BBQ?

Mi² @ work says (7:04 PM):

when?

Snoopy says (7:05 PM):

nowish

Mi² @ work says (7:05 PM):

noooo

Snoopy says (7:05 PM):

you're gay

Mi² @ work says (7:05 PM):

why are you inviting me so late?

Snoopy says (7:05 PM):

i just got home

and decide to have a BBQ

Mi² @ work says (7:05 PM):

i just want to come over and chill in your hot tub

Snoopy says (7:06 PM):

sure

bring a bikini

Mi² @ work says (7:07 PM):

i am not coming over tonite though. i have plans

Snoopy says (7:07 PM):

well then you're not getting laid!

Mi² @ work says (7:07 PM):

whatevs

Snoopy says (7:08 PM):

really?

can I watch?

Mi² @ work says (7:09 PM):

NOOO

private affair lol

Snoopy says (7:10 PM):

fine

I'm not letting you watch me have sex either then

Mi² @ work says (7:10 PM):

i never asked to watch you have sex, dude. wrong girl!

Snoopy says (7:10 PM):

yes you did

you were drunk

and don't remember

Mi² @ work says (7:10 PM):

no i fucking didn't

Snoopy says (7:10 PM):

: P

Mi² @ work says (7:10 PM):

ive never been drunk with you

Snoopy says (7:10 PM):

yah

we made out

Mi² @ work says (7:11 PM):

where?

Snoopy says (7:11 PM):

and you touched the tip of my penis

whadddddayamean where

Mi² @ work says (7:11 PM):

where were we, dumdum?

Snoopy says (7:12 PM):

in your pants

Mi² @ work says (7:12 PM):

i think you've been fantasizing too much

if you wanna make out, just say so

Snoopy says (7:12 PM):

lol

Mi² @ work says (7:12 PM):

god

Snoopy says (7:12 PM):

fine

let's make out

Mi² @ work says (7:12 PM):

maybe

depends

Snoopy says (7:12 PM):

fine

sure

let's just get into the hot tub and see what happens

Mi² @ work says (7:13 PM):

i hit the hot tub every monday nite

and nothing happens

Snoopy says (7:13 PM):

where?

Mi² @ work says (7:13 PM):

i just get really relaxed

at the hotel

Snoopy says (7:13 PM):

what hotel?

Mi² @ work says (7:13 PM):

the clarion

in fucking barfalo

Snoopy says (7:13 PM):

why do you go there?

Mi² @ work says (7:13 PM):

omg i'm in school dumdum!

Snoopy says (7:13 PM):

i can't keep up

with your ventures

Mi² @ work says (7:14 PM):

every monday and tuesday i have classes there so i stay over

you dont even care : (

Snoopy says (7:14 PM):

you know i love u

so shut up

Mi² @ work says (7:14 PM):

prove it!

Snoopy says (7:14 PM):
(emoticon rose)

see!

there

Mi² @ work says (7:14 PM):

omg a cheesy emoticon?

you gotta try harder than that

Snoopy says (7:14 PM):

well

Mi² @ work says (7:14 PM):

at least make a custom one

Snoopy says (7:15 PM):

anyways

I'm going to go downstairs

and grill pork souvlaki

and flirt with various asian girls

Mi² @ work says (7:16 PM):

good luck!

Snoopy says (7:16 PM):

have a nice evening

Mi² @ work says (7:16 PM):

you too!

Snoopy says (7:16 PM):

ciao

I don't understand why people can't just be forthcoming with what they want. For instance, instead of saying he "owes" me a nice dinner, why can't he just ask me out to dinner like normal people would? Or, alternately, if he wants to get it on, why not just relay that information flirtatiously like regular folk would? I just don't get it. Emotional maturity accounts for something big in my world. I don't like guessing games. And what is up with the asian girls? AARGH!

Listening to: baby Emm and lil' Declo's sweet voices in the next room

true blood and grit

I am now an official member of the Ontario College of Teachers! Just need to forward my NYS teaching certificate and Medaille College transcripts when they become available in August and my file will be complete.

Applied to several jobs today:
- San Carlos Apache Indian Reserve, Arizona. Close to Tuscon and Phoenix. SUN!!
- 17 postings all over Peel Region, for Full-Time Permananent as well as Long Term Occupancies (LTO, ranging from Kindergarten (!!!) to grade 8 to a behavioural classroom. For postings that I am not qualified for (i.e. grade 7-8, special ed), I just added whatever qualification it is that I need as "pending" in my cover letter.

Keepin' the fingers *and* toes crossed!

I made it into LP school yesterday, for the first time since my placement ended in May. It was worth dragging my ass out of bed in the morning to see the looks of excitement on the grades 4/5's faces when they walked into the classroom. It was like old times again, me standing at the front of the class, greeting each of them. I know there is a divide between the "hands-off" camp and the "kids needs hugs" camp but I just couldn't resist hugging them all back. It was nice to hear "You're back! Can you stay for good?" and "Things haven't been the same without you." *tears up* I am going back next Wednesday to say goodbye, their last day of classes being on Thursday. As the end of the school year approaches, teachers are clearly anxious and the kids are hyper. Not much teaching happening now but I did do some round robin reading with them to calm them down after lunch.

In other news, I have put off writing chapter 3 of the damned dissertation. It is due in a couple of days but for the life of me, I just can't begin. It seems like a complete waste of time and focus when in the end, I don't even get a letter grade. Unless you count an "S" for "Satisfactory." I have no impetus to put an effort into this long-winded piece of crap. UGH! Well, I have been somehat distracted by the HBO series True Blood. I bought the first season this week and I can't stop watching it every night. Southern-fried vampires...mmm mmm good! I wish that I could put this much focus onto my work...

une nuit delicieuse

A long overdue post-date post.

Finally met The Chef last Sunday at his West Toronto home after several months of Blackberrying and phone calls. It was well worth the wait! I had worked an 8 hour shift with seven teenaged hoodlums at the Bunker so I was really looking forward to some down-time, and despite the first date jitters, I sure landed some..... Five hours of it! The first thing I noticed, upon approaching his cute cottage-like home was his big black dog going berserk behind the screen door. Luckily, The Chef noticed the intrusion and came to let me in.

First impression: warm, relaxed, definitely not a psycho. SCORE! He was sinewy, wore glasses, and really mellow. We spent most of the evening on his back deck; drinking wine, smoking cigarettes, eating chocolate and strawberries; while his dog Charlie intermittently napped by our feet,rising up to chase random noises (and a cat) behind the bushes. Talk was easy and the (dare I say it) chemistry was even better. I don't think anyone's ever called me "charming" before, haha! We spoke of our families to work to past relationships to architecture to Teenage Head -- I sure hope that we aren't nearly all talked out. He showed me his tats and *tried* to show me his "nice feet" but I flatly declined glancing at them. Not on the first date - what kind of a girl do you think I am? This didn't stop him from grabbing at mine, being a fan of painted toes (and my shoes). SCORE!

All in all, it was well worth getting home at 2:30am only to get up at 5am to head to Barfalo for school. As for the goodbye kiss, in my awkwardness, it got messed up when we sort of collided and it turned into a hug. All isn't lost - the next day, he emailed me to thank me for the nice time we had. And I can't wait to see him again :)

Listening to: Kings of Leon - Sex on Fire

you applied where?!

I applied online for a teaching job yesterday. It's in Abu Dhabi which is supposed to be the second richest city in the UAE after Dubai.

Details:
$81 K for the year (Sept-June)
Paid accomodation
Full healthcare
Paid airfare
Sun-Thurs 7:30-2pm

I told my dad and he said "You'll be lucky if you make it back after the year is up. They stone women over there!"

Snoopy: "Lame. Especially for women. You can't eat with men. And you'll have to drive through the desert to a shack to buy booze."

Didi: WHY?

I figure that it will be an experience, but more importantly, one year of teaching abroad will pay off all student debt. *sigh* And I would come back to Canada after the contract is up.

Ideally, I would land a job in the GTA, preferably in downtown Toronto. Or somewhere in Canada so I can start contributing to the pension plan. To be honest, I'd be happy supply teaching this coming school year. I need the break.

Time to research Nunavut.

Listening to: Bloc Party - Banquet

LBNTS (La bohème's Next Top Suitor)

Congratulations, Chef.
You are still in the running toward becoming my next top suitor.

Listening to: Spoon - Sister Jack

here we go....

Back in Barfalo, 2nd day of last semester. Getting up at 6:30am is not so bad when you are snoring by 9:15pm the night before. Yesterday's classes weren't as bad as I had anticipated seeing as there weren't too many intense assignments on the syllabi. Some pointless ones, of course, but this is teacher's college after all. Two more courses today: Child Abuse & School Violence and Children's Literature. Clandestine instant messaging and online gaming gets us all through.

8 more weeks to go!!

Listening to: other early-risers in class